I took a test today...

...a pregnancy test.

And it was negative, a big fat negative. I'm starting to believe I may never see a positive test. Month after month of disappointment sucks. I was really hopeful this month. I know so many people who get pregnant the cycle of or following their HSG. Not the case here. Shoot even my temps have been completely off, first it showed ovulation on day 18 then it changed it to day 23 because they had gotten so high.

So I guess I'll have to call my OB today and tell him that I'll take the referral for the RE. After 9 months of Clomid with no luck it's time to move on. In retrospect I suppose I should have moved on months ago. But I wasn't ready to spend the extra money or go through another complete work up. But if we want to have kids any time soon I suppose I better bite the bullet and start writing checks.

So if you see us out panhandling be sure to donate...RE's are expensive!

stream of consciousness

I saw a big red tractor drive by my house today...guess that means I really do live in the country now. I'm also writing to you from a dial up connection that is super s..l..o..w.. and I'm not even sure this post will post, as I can't look at my blog because it takes f.o.r.e.v.e.r to load and I get bored. I do find it funny that Facebook works amazingly well on this dial up connection. But my banking site...not so much. It took me 45 mins to check our account yesterday, and it timed out on me twice. I guess bank sites are not made for dial up connections...who knew? We had my dad's side of the family over today. It turned into a celebration of mine and Mr. B's birthday's along with our new house. My wonderful step mom did everything. From bringing all the food to even getting plastic silverware and paper plates. She even brought the cutest cake! I really wish I'd have gotten a picture of it before my step mom cut it...it was so freaking adorable I couldn't believe it. And I don't think it could ever be re-created. Oh well...it lives on in my memory. I'm on CD 10 and finished this round of clomid last night. I was sitting here talking to Mr. B this evening and I started to get really hot. Then I remembered I took the clomid this month and realized the hot flashes were starting already. Usually it takes a few days after my last dose before those kick in...lucky me it started earlier. Must be because it was 200mg. But I have found that the months I do have hot flashes are months that the clomid actually makes me ovulate (based on progesterone levels) so I'm hoping this will be a good sign. That combined with it being the cycle following my HSG procedure I will be holding on to a lot of hope this month. I really hope we don't get let down again. And since I am breaking out into a sweat again I will call it a night. The hot flashes (combined with the extreme heartburn clomid also gives me) make it hard for me to sleep so I should start as early as I can. I do have to work in the morning you know...and I won't complain to much since it's a holiday and I get paid double time and a half..ka-ching!

2011 has to be our year.

Our last chance for a 2010 baby ended today. It’s funny how 1 trip to the bathroom can ruin your whole day. Sorry...TMI I know, lol.

I remember a year ago I was telling Mr. B that if we get pregnant this month we will have a 2010 baby. I was so excited (as you may or may not know I’m all about numbers) because it’s an even year and the beginning of a new decade. So in 2011 our child would be 1 and 2012 our child would be 2 and so on. I was born in 1980 so it was easy to tell how old I was based on the year. Also this is the year I turn 30, which is again an even year and the beginning of a new decade. I just thought it was meant to be.

But here I am, starting a new cycle, and not nearly as excited. It’s not that I’m not excited to have a 2011 baby...it’s just that we don’t already have a baby. That it’s been a year since I had my second fertility work up and we’re still childless. I’m starting to lose hope that we will ever have a baby. Maybe it’s just not meant to happen.

I have a Dr’s appointment tomorrow to go over my charts and my 7dpo progesterone for this cycle, which was 30.1. So I did ovulate at least. I’m sure he will tell me I can do another round of the Clomid or go on to the RE. I think I am going to ask him to do an HSG or Laparoscopy again like he recommended before going to the RE though. I just think my insurance will cover it better from my OB then an RE. You know they see the word infertility and decline all the claims.

For now I sit here with my glass of wine and shattered dreams. Infertility sucks.

stream of consciousness

My car is still at the shop. They told me I probably won’t have it back till next Monday or Tuesday. They have to replace the head gasket and supercharger/serpentine belt. Plus they said I should get new spark plugs and wires and an air filter. General maintenance I suppose. Wasn’t looking forward to the expenses as the head gasket is the only thing covered under the warranty. Which I have $100 deductable for said warranty. Plus the extras they are doing. My total will be $272. I guess it’s not that bad. But if you remember we had to order a new sway bar. And we got new brakes since those should be done as well. Now we are up to $430. So glad to be paying $430 to fix a car that I am still making car payments on. Aren’t they suppose to last until the car payments are paid off? Good grief.

Clomid makes me very hot. Like break out into a sweat going to throw up hot. It is not a nice drug. I just hope it works this month, I don’t want to take it again. And I really don’t want to go see an RE. They are very expensive and after the $400 we just spent on my car we are broke, lol. I should be ovulating this weekend. But Mr.B is sick. I told him he better be well by this weekend. But then I started feeling sick. I’ve been using Zicam and my symptoms are subsiding, guess it really does work. Now if it can just get him better life would be grand.

Our move date is getting closer and closer and I feel like we should begin packing. We have so much crap. But then I think it’s really so far away that packing now would be silly. I suppose I should at least start getting some boxes so we will have enough when it comes time to move. Did you enter my giveaway here? It’s for a very nice necklace from my friend Donna who lives in Canada. She was a Stella & Dot seller until very recently. After she resigned she emailed and asked if I’d like to offer it up as a giveaway on my blog. Well of course I would…I love giving things away. And all you have to do is leave me a comment on that post to be entered. Super easy and you could get a $60 necklace out of it. I hope you all enter! I love doing stream of consciousness posts. I don’t have to worry about proper sentence structures. Makes writing much easier. I should do them more. Don’t forget to enter my giveaway!

Sex should be planned.

I usually get my prescriptions at Walgreens because they have a drive through and it allows me to be lazy. But this month with a higher dose of Clomid I knew it was going to cost more, so I decided to use the pharmacy at the hospital I work at. We receive a discount and we can use payroll deduction. I used to use it all the time but since I’m no longer on campus it’s not as convenient. But I had a few scripts to pick up, some over the counter multi-vitamins and my Clomid alone was $25 I thought this was a great option. And they only take $20 a pay period. Actually a really nice plan and I should use it for everything. We have been getting Mr.B’s heartburn medicine there and it’s only $2.15 a month!

But I’m getting off track here...back to the point of this story. I drop off my script and decide to wait while it’s being filled. No point in leaving when it should only take 10-15 mins. After it’s done the nice, older pharmacist Jim hands me my scripts and I fill out my payroll form. We tell each other good bye and he tells me to have a good weekend.

As I’m waiting for the elevator I pull out the form with my Clomid and begin to read it. It’s kind of like a receipt that tells the pharmacist what to give me. It also has the price that the pharmacist crosses off and changes to my discounted price. So I know it was read with in minutes of giving it to me. First it tells me “Do not take if you are pregnant” Well duh…if I was pregnant I wouldn’t need this. Not so bad…right? But then I read “sex should be planned”. I really think I could feel my face turning red. Did Jim just tell me to have a nice weekend because he knew that I was gettin some? And was it necessary to talk about my sex life on this little piece of paper? Did Jim really need to tell me when to have sex? OMG…Jim knows I will be having sex! Yes...I know I was overreacting.

Needless to say I don’t think the $5 I saved was worth it. And I’m not sure if I can face Jim again...at least not next week, lol.

What’s another month?

It’s 7pm and I’m finally getting online to check my emails, read my forums and blog. It’s been a busy day and I’m glad to be home.

It started at 8am with a meeting at work. Those always go well...not. Same ‘ol stuff every month. Seems kind of pointless to have to get up at 7am on my day off, but I suck it up cause I don’t want everyone talking about me when I’m not there, lol.

After my meeting I headed to the bar, yup I said the bar. Tomorrow is my co-workers birthday and a few of us went to breakfast and had a beer. Well I drank diet coke, but in spirit it was a beer, lol. I finally left there around 11:30am or so and headed to my moms.

My mom is moving this weekend so I was helping her sort and pack some things. I also managed to pilfer through her stuff and find some things I wanted, as any good daughter would do. I mean I couldn’t leave without a box or two of new things, could I?

Then at 2:30pm I had my doctors appointment. He looked at this months temp chart and said it was pretty good. Although my temp was very up and down during my luteal phase. Also my 7dpo progesterone was only 13.43, so he doesn’t think I ovulated this cycle. Which I didn’t take the Clomid so I’m not surprised, although I did hope that it had built up in my system over the last 4 months enough to work...guess not.

I asked him about the Famara and he said that he didn’t prescribe that med and Clomid was as far as he went. So I had two choices: I could try a month on 200mg Clomid and see if that ups my progesterone level or he could refer me to the RE.

Since my insurance doesn’t cover infertility outside of medication, which they only cover at 50%, I know that most of what is done at an RE will be out of pocket. So I decided to give the 200mg a shot. If we are unsuccessful this month then I will head on to the RE. I figure I should use all the resources I can at my OB since it’s covered, that way I know I tried everything. As much as I want to be pregnant now, it’s only one more month. I think I can hold out till then.

I think tomorrow I am going to try calling the RE’s office to get a price idea. Since there is only one office in the area, and it’s actually in the next town over, I know they will have seen people with my insurance and should be able to tell me what, if anything, will be covered. I’m hoping that my office visits will at least be covered under specialist, which have a $30 co-pay. Then I can at least afford to have a chat with them, we may not be able to do anything else. But at least we can talk about it, lol.

Sweet tea is my weakness.

I’m sitting here sipping on a Sweet Tea from Mc. D’s and watching New Moon. As you can see, by the writing of this blog post, that I’m not very interested in the movie.

I’m sure you’re thinking “Why watch it then?”

Well to be honest I put it on Netflix just so I can say “yeah, I’ve seen it”. But it’s really just background noise for me today. I don’t know, maybe it’s better than the first one and I should pay more attention. But I just really am not that interested in it and didn’t really see what the big hype with it was to begin with. But to each their own I suppose.

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In other news...our Au Natural cycle wasn’t a success. In fact I’m having the same issue as last month. I had my progesterone level checked on Friday, but don’t have the results yet. I have an appointment on Wednesday and will find out then and hopefully switch to a new med. We’ll see.

I’ve been having lots of cramping and spotting since about 5dpo. Which before meant that I wasn’t ovulating and my progesterone was low. So I won’t be shocked if it comes back low. Although I had hoped that after 4 months of Clomid it would have built up in my system enough...but who knows. The worst part about TTC is the waiting game, seems like all you do is wait...wait...wait.

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My FIL’s house is done being built and he should be moving in very soon. We have been taking pictures during the whole process and I want to make a photo book for him. But I’m not sure what to call it, like what to put on the cover. The only thing I can come up with is The Bushey House 2010...is that lame? Well I’m open to all suggestions if anyone has anything better, lol.

Au Natural

It just seems I can’t ever catch a break. Looks like I won’t be taking Clomid this month. My stupid body has other plans for me, like doing nothing.

Yup…nothing.

I thought the evil witch was showing her self but apparently she can’t make up her mind...or so I thought. Turns out that when you do 4 months of high doses of Clomid it can thin your endometrial lining. (I did know that before hand, just hopeful it wouldn’t happen to me)

So I have no idea what cycle day I’m on as I’ve just been spotting on and off since last Thursday. So I don’t know what day to count as day 1. I also took a pregnancy test this morning cause I didn’t want to be one of those woman who didn’t know they were pregnant...but of course it was negative.

Looks like I will just take my temps each day and start using OPK’s here in a few days and hope that I still ovulate. As Clomid does build up in your system so it should still work this month to make me ovulate. I will also have a 7dpo progesterone test if I get a positive ovulation per my temps.

If we don’t get pregnant this au natural cycle and the witch returns in full force then I can resume taking Clomid next month. Although I do have another appointment in a few weeks and will probably ask my doctor to switch me to Famara as it’s much easier on the body from what I’ve been told. So maybe Clomid is in my past and I won’t ever have to take that evil drug again. We’ll see.

A fresh perspective

Well today officially starts cycle 5 with clomid. I know you're probably thinking I was jumping the gun with my last post as your not out until the witch shows her ugly head. And OMG what am I doing drinking wine in the 2ww?!?!

Well this last 2 weeks was nothing like the last 2 years of 2 week waits. Because of all the pain I was in there was no baby dancing those days. Then based on my temps FF said I ovulated on Cycle day 17...which is earlier than the previous months. So on CD 19 when I awoke and put my temp in I received the cross hairs that pinpoints ovulation. Talk about being upset as I knew even if we baby danced then it was probably to late. And since I was still in some pain I decided to just rest and not risk aggravating the pain any more. So I spent another evening crying myself to sleep.

But this month was worse...much worse. I mean getting a negative pee stick is pretty darn disappointing, but knowing that you have no chance of getting a positive is much worse. I was also upset that I had taken the Clomid and turned into a monster and felt like crap, that I took my temp every day and charted all of my symptoms for nothing. A complete waste of my time and our money. Which led to this post. After getting all of that out I tried to compose myself and think of the positives...there were none. Well none that I could see at first.

But then I quit taking my temp, didn't think every pinch, pull or cramp was a sign of pregnancy. I enjoyed a few glasses of wine and stayed away from my TTC forums. After a few days I felt relaxed...rejuvenated if you will. Yes, this was the least stress full 2ww I have every been in. And although I knew the witch was coming just as scheduled, I was still a tad disappointed to see her. But excited she arrived so we can start another round.

So this month as I return to taking my temp and start taking my bitch pill I will do it with more ease, as I feel relaxed and ready to start another cycle. Now ask me in a few days if I feel the same way, lol.

Lucky number 5.

I’m sitting here enjoying a glass of wine trying to mentally prepare myself to begin round 5 of Clomid in a few days. I find myself feeling warm and fuzzy after only 1/2 a glass, I suppose it’s been quite some time since I’ve had a drink. Such is the life of a seasoned TTCer.

Last month was a hard month. On CD 18 I began having extreme pelvic/abdominal pain and nausea. So bad in fact I considered going to the emergency room as I thought it was my appendix. But I’m used to having pain from the endometriosis so I thought I’d stick it out for a while. Although this wasn’t a cramping type of pain, it was a bloated, extreme pressure kind of pain focused mainly on the right side.

I went to bed that night still in a lot of pain, but woke up the next morning in a little less pain, but still in pain none the less. Since it was less I figured it wasn’t my appendix and was most likely my ovaries. Later that evening the pain became a dull ache but almost gone. I woke up the next morning (CD 20) feeling 100x better.

Looking back I should have probably called my doctor and had an ultrasound to see what was going on. I know that I have a risk of developing Ovarian Hyperstimulation and it could have been that I was beginning to show some signs of this. So I’m some what hesitant to do another round of Clomid. I also worry about what next month could bring. But worry doesn’t trump wanting so I push forward.

So in a few days I will transform into a crying..sappy..crazy..neurotic..hateful person. My husband is scared thrilled...I hope he survives another month.

Got to love Fortune Cookies.

Here we are, Cycle Day 1 again. I was very hopeful for last month since I had such good progesterone levels. Which means I produced an egg, I guess now we just need to give some one directions to it. To bad they don’t make GPS’ for these type of situations.

I had a doctor’s appointment on Friday, which really was a waste of time. My appointment was at 11:15 am and I was out of there by 11:30 am. He said my temp chart was textbook perfect and my progesterone showed that I had a nice strong Ovulation. He was disappointed to see my temp was dropping and said AF would be here on Sun. He was right. I am going to do another month of temps and have a progesterone level done 7dpo just to make sure the Clomid is making me ovulate every month and not every other month since last month my progesterone was only 12, but was 33 this month.

So I start another month today and will begin taking Clomid on CD 5. While going over my stats I discovered if we get pregnant this cycle my due date would be October 31st…which I think is neat since the first cycle we started taking Clomid was October 31st.

Oh, and we went out for Chinese last night and my fortune said “You will receive positive results soon” Now how's that for a great fortune, lets hope it’s right!

CD 26, 7dpo…

was yesterday. Since it was 7dpo I had another progesterone level done. I was hoping that since it was such a good number on 2dpo that it would be just as good this time.

And I was so surprised by the number I was given…33.64!

OMG that is super high! Especially since last month is was 12. I guess you can say I am no long anovulatory, well this month at least. Thank you Clomid!

I can’t wait to hear what my doctor has to say on Friday! Although I will admit that I am some what worried that he will tell me it has gotten to high, as you do run a risk of developing Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome, and I may have to take a month off if were not pregnant this month. I was told of this before starting, but didn’t figure I would have to worry about it. And I’m sure I won’t, but the thought did cross my mind for a second.

So fingers crossed he doesn’t say that, or more crossed that it means were pregnant!

Cycle day 17

…and this is what I got:

Yup…another positive OPK! I couldn’t be more thrilled! And I got two….one in the am and one in the pm. So I should be ovulating in 24-36 hrs from this morning!!! Now I just need a nice temp spike and positive blood results and I will be through the moon!

So it does look as if the 150mg of Clomid is doing it’s job. Which makes the hot flashes, nausea, headaches, and extreme crankiness/irritability/annoyance worth it. Well to me anyways, Mr. B is NOT thrilled with the crankiness I’ve been having. And would not like me to take it again. Which resulted in me saying “well it’s working and I’m doing my job, if you would just do yours I wouldn’t have to take it again” Yeah……TTC sure does take it’s toll on you and your relationship. But it’s worth it if we get our little peanut in the end, and we know that. So we will continue to deal with it and the side effects and hopefully still be married when/if we get pregnant, lol.

Meanwhile I continue to pray for positive results as I begin to enter the two week wait.

This is what true disappointment feels like.

I called my doctors office today for my lab results....they weren't in.

A few hours later the nurse called back and said that she does have my lab results and she gave them to the doctor who said he wants to see me tomorrow. Which I knew immediately wasn't good.

And I was right.......progesterone level equals 12.89. At least we went up, just not high enough for being on 150mg of Clomid. But I have to say that since I began spotting on Sunday I knew I was pretty much out for this month anyways, so I'm not completely crushed. but I was hoping to have at least ovulated.

I do wonder why I got a positive on the OPK though. So maybe my body did gear up to ovulate but then didn't. Like I said I had some spotting on Sunday which also contained some clots, so i wonder if I had a cyst rupture. So maybe I geared up and it turned into a cyst??? Ugh, so many questions.

So I made a few phone calls and got someone to come in for me tomorrow so I can make the appointment. Which is good since I do have so many questions. I just hope we can come up with a plan, although I think he's going to just refer me to an RE. Which I guess is good, since I obviously need some more help. But things are probably going to get very expensive from here on out. That alone is enough to make me cry.

I have Hope once again.

Remember this post?

Well for the last few days I have been taking those OPK tests each afternoon, only to be disappointed in a negative result every time. I was beginning to lose hope that the Clomid worked.

But then Sunday afternoon I took another test. And as usual I had two lines, except this time the lines were the same color! I couldn't believe my eyes so I called Mr. B in the bathroom and was like "Are these the same color"

He said "yes".

I was like "that means it's positive!!"

He said "YAY"

I was like "apparently you don't understand what that means....it means the Clomid may have worked!!"

He said "I understand, and let me say it again, YAY!!" Apparently he wasn't as excited as me. But you'd have thought it was a positive pregnancy test with as much excitement as I had so I can't blame him on that one.

But that was on cycle day 17, which means I should ovulate sometime between days 17-19. So when I have my blood draw on cycle day 21 it will still probably show low, meaning no ovulation. Which may be the case or since the day 21 level is supposed to be 7 days after ovulation, I should be drawn on Day 25 or so. So I'm wondering if maybe I have been ovulating, just late, so that's why it's always negative. Which also means that gives me a whole new problem to deal with. As that could mean my Luteal Phase is short and it wouldn't give my little eggy enough time to implant before AF shows.

But I have new found hope! When I call the doc for my lab draw I am going to ask them about this and see if maybe I should have a draw on a different cycle day as well. In the mean time lots of Baby dust and prayers are appreciated!

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Hormones are Evil!

Last night I started this months dose of Clomid. I am now taking 150mg on cycle days 5-9 in hopes that it makes me ovulate.

The only side effects I had from the 50mg dose last month was crying. I cried at everything from commercials to news stories. And already, only 12 hrs after taking it I feel the crying urge.

But this time for no reason at all. Just sitting here I want to cry.

I’m afraid to turn the TV on as I don’t want to turn into a weeping mess.

Man, hormones are evil! But I guess if it works it’s totally worth it!

Don’t forget about our Community, come tell me your TTC stories. I’d love to hear them.

It is what it is.......Part 3

Ugh...I am so frustrated right now.

In August I had my Progesterone level checked, which I told you about in this post. It was 11 then, meaning that I didn't ovulate. So I was started on Clomid 50mg on cycle days 5-9.

Then I had my knee surgery so I waited to take it until October. Then again in November, where on Day 21 I had my progesterone checked again. This time it was 8.3!

Yup that's right, it went down! I needed a 15 or higher, I prayed for a 15 or higher. I begged for a 15 or higher.

But no such luck. So even with the clomid I didn't ovulate.

So now were upping my dose to 100mg my next cycle in hopes that my numbers will rise and I will produce an egg. Just one little egg to fertilize!

I tell you infertility makes you feel like such a failure, I mean who can't produce an egg. You're born with millions of them for pete's sake. Why can't I spit one out when I need to???

So let's hope that 100mg is our friend, if not I guess it's on to 150mg.......

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Is there a medicine cabinet in my purse?

Another weekend has gone by and I have now entered the 2ww*. I swear this 2 weeks of my life drags on for a month, I'm not kidding, it takes for ever.

This month I took 50mg of Clomid on cycle days 5-9, same as last month, but I also took FertileCM and I coaxed Mr. B into taking FertilAid for men as well. Which was a bit of a challenge and he would probably kill me for telling you all this, but if it works he will get over it, lol.

I was very pleased with the FertileCM. Last month was the first month of Clomid and it did tend to have some side effects in that area. But this month with the FertileCM I was back to my self. I normally don't have any problems in that area, so I was shocked that the Clomid did cause that effect, but was glad that there is a product that I can get over the counter that contains all natural ingredients. I will admit that I didn't take it the 3x a day like I was supposed to, but only taking it twice did it's job for me. I'm sure it would have increased the quanity if I would have taken it 3x a day, but I kept forgetting the noon time one. But as long as I am taking the Clomid I will continue to take the FertileCM.

Now Mr. B said he didn't really notice a difference in how he felt while taking his product. I asked his every few days if he felt different, or had more energy, or any side effects and he just kept saying no. Which is a good thing as sometimes people have side effects from products like this, I was glad he didn't. Also he doesn't have any known problems in that area so we were just taking it as a boost since it was sent to us. We won't find out if it was the great boost we needed until the end of our 2ww. But he didn't have any side effects from it and said he will continue taking it as long as needed. Hopefully this month will be it, but I'm not getting my hopes up as I know the drill.

I did feel like I was a walking medicine cabinet this month between the Clomid, FertileCM, Prenatal vitamin, my regular BP med, and an aspirin. But it's all worth it.

Did you take a lot of meds during your TTC time? Or were you one of the lucky ones that didn't need any assistance?

A little update.

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Also don't forget about Paisley's Ocean, they are offering 10% off all orders by using BUSHEY10 at checkout. This promotion will go through the end of August.

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Please continue to pray for Stellan. His condition continues to change as do his plans for his medical care. Much prayer is needed for Stellan, his family, and the medical staff overlooking him.

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I've been a little MIA in all aspects of my life. Not doing much but going to work and home. I'm extremely tired all the time, and dizzy most of the other times. Since I will hopefully be starting Clomid with my next cycle I had to do some med changes. And my body is not taking well to this. I was taking Celexa but had to quit, quitting Celexa can cause someone to have major withdrawl symptoms. I am lucky in the aspect that I only had minor withdrawl, but I still had them. Also I was on Toprol 1x a day and that has been working well, for the last 2 years. But it's a Pregnancy Class C drug, meaning it's not recommended for use in pregnancy. So I had to start a new blood pressure med.

I am now on Aldomet which I started out taking 2x a day. But my pressure was still elevated, so after calling the Dr she told me to take it 3x a day. So now I'm on 3x a day but since I haven't been at work since upping it I'm not sure how my levels are so I'm not sure if it's working yet. I do know that I am still extremely tired. Like falling asleep at 9pm last night even though I slept in until 1 pm. I know that I can't live like this, feeling tired and dizzy all the time. I also don't like having to take a med 3x a day, I hate taking meds at all, let alone 3x a day. Not only that but when/if we get pregnant it's only going to get worse. So who knows how many meds I'll have to be on or how many times a day I'll have to take them. I guess right now I'm lucky because it's only the BP med I have to take. But since I have MVP which is/can be aggrevated by pregnancy I will probably have to add meds for that, or be put on restrictions or bed rest.

So I guess I should get used to it right?

The wait continues.....

Yesterday I had another Dr's appointment. It didn't go as well as I had planned, and I'm still stuck in the waiting game. But I'm hopeful things will get better from here.

But I have another condition to add to my list: Adenomyosis. Well this is just speculation as the only way to 100% diagnose it is with a hysterectomy. But I have all the symptoms of it, which are also pretty much the same as Endometriosis. And the two usually go hand in hand. Also the only way to cure this is by hysterectomy. So I guess it doesn't matter if I have it since I just have to deal with it anyways. Such joy

The joys of being a woman.

I also will not be starting Clomid this cycle. Based on my temp chart he believes I ovulated. But is somewhat concerned with a temp dip I had after ovulation, since your temps should stay up and not go up and down as mine did. So I'm doing another month of temping, and having my Progesterone level checked on Day 21. Based on what that shows he will decide if I will be starting clomid. Since if I am in fact ovulating he doesn't see a real need in the clomid and we will have to pursue other options.

Looks like another waiting game.....