Quick update on my appointment.

Today I went for my follow up ultrasound and blood work. The u/s showed I had 2 follies size 7.5 and 9 and about 5 smaller ones she didn't measure. She was unable to find my right ovary and after looking for a while decided to stop. She said it didn't matter if there were any follies on it anyways since my tube was blocked on that side. We were just happy to see I did have 2 follies growing.

But of course they are still to small for me to do a trigger shot so I will continue with the Gonal-F shot until Sunday. We are upping my dose from 75IU to 125IU in hopes that the follies will grow large enough by my next u/s on Monday.

Also my Estradiol level was only 71 and it needs to be 150 to 200 to show mature follies. Which the level goes along with the size of my follies, so we figured it wouldn't come back high enough yet.

So now we will just continue the nightly shots of Gonal-F and hope that the follies continue to grow.

A HUGE weight has been lifted.

If you remember from this post we spent over $400 on our meds this month, and that was with 50% coverage. Being such a large sum of money I was worried that we wouldn’t be able to complete another month if it didn’t work this month. So we literally put all of our eggs in the basket. All of our hopes on this one month. Talk about feeling a little stressed.

Well last week I was on one of my forums I frequent for people who are TTC with medical assistance. Someone had posted that they had 2 Gonal-F 900IU pens (still sealed) that they would no longer need as she just became pregnant. Well my doctor wrote my script for 2 300IU pens so this amount was 3x as much as I had received for $400. So of course I messaged her to see if they were still available, and luckily they were!

And guess how much she wanted for them...$30 plus the cost to overnight it to me! That was her co-pay (must be nice to have fertility medication coverage) and that was all she wanted for it! So $45 later and I now have several months of medication if we need it. Unfortunately I had already ordered mine and it was to late to cancel it so we still spent the $400, but at least now we can do another month if need be.

I’m hoping that we won’t need to do another month and I can pass my remaining meds on to someone else, still sealed of course. Cause it was such a sigh of relief and I would love to pass that feeling on. When she emailed back and said she still had them I could literally feel the weight lifting off my shoulders and life coming back to our dream. Infertility is expensive and when you can find great deals you jump on it.

And did you know there is actually a site where you can buy fertility medications from other people? It’s freegaragesale.com under the medical section. For someone who doesn’t have any medication coverage it could be a great resource.

By the way...what do you think of the new layout? Love it...hate it...don’t care? Let me know what you think! Well it’s time for my nightly shot, it’s become much easier. Almost as normal as brushing your teeth before going to bed.

I’m a big baby.

Yesterday was my cycle day 3 ultrasound and everything looked good. So I was told to start the Follistim that evening. I was some what excited about moving on with this cycle, but very apprehensive about giving myself shots.

So last night about 9pm I went in the kitchen and gathered my supplies.

I’m using the Gonal-F pen that I ended up purchasing from a now pregnant woman who no longer needed it. But more on that later. I decided to do my first shot in my upper thigh. I figured it would be easier because I could completely see the area and it was like a target. Where as on my stomach I didn’t feel like I would have 100% control. So I dialed the pen to the correct dosing, sat down at the dining room table and used an alcohol swab to clean the area.

Then I froze.

I mean seriously...how was I going to give myself a shot?!?! I mean who wants to stab themselves with sharp objects for fun, well besides heroine users and people with mental health problems. Which thankfully I am neither.

By this time I had an audience. Mr.B was standing there watching me and telling me to hurry up and just do it or let him do it for me. Then his friend was standing there watching as well, because it was cool to see me give myself a shot I guess. For a moment I though about letting hubby do it, but he had this evil look to him. The look of “here babe...let me stab you with this needle, muahahaha” So I passed. At one point I tried to “feel” how sharp the needle was with my finger, but Mr.B told me to stop before I made contact. Why I was ok with poking my finger and not my leg I will never know. I mean it was stupid considering I would then have had 2 needle pokes. The things we do to procrastinate, lol.

I did finally ask him to get me an ice cube so I could numb the area. After numbing it 4-5 times, because I kept waiting to long and the area was no longer numb, I finally got the courage to stick the needle in...

...and it didn’t hurt at all!!!

Seriously, there was like .05 seconds of a pinch and that was it! I thought to myself “I was really this upset over this?”

I still don’t think I could ever be a heroine addict, as it still wasn’t something I’d do for “fun”. But none the less I think the next several days will go by much easier than I thought. Well until I have to shoot myself in the hip, that one I am not looking forward to. But in the end if we get our baby I will know it was all worth it.